fast

10days. Kat kev daddy thanksgiving and modeling are all on the line now. And friends and barn secondarily… I will lose 30lbs within the next 7-15 days. No more struggling. I will have to struggle through the first 5 days where I will lose anywhere from 10-20 lbs… So on day 5 ill weigh myself and start updating my weightloss and measurements every other day.

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nvm NEW goal 30lbs

This is a number I’ve never before aimed for. 30lbs in 2weeks is tantalizing… And if I only drink water, and green tea, and I do as much exercise as I can I will do it. If it takes 16 days, or even 20… So be it… But I will lose 30lbs… And I will not eat until I hit 80. Once I hit 100 I will measure myself every 5 lbs of weightloss so every 2-3days. Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels… And I am finally back on track.

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2 week fast to lose 25lbs

I’ve never been below 98… But I want to fast till 85, so even with clothes on, if I drink water, or get out of the shower, or have to pee, I’m never over 90. I remember clearly the day I hit 90lbs when I was 14… Its all been downhill from there and its my new goal to be one of the tinnest most beautiful runway girls. I’m tired of milling around. Of course the first 3-4 days and (10lbs) are the most difficult to get through and I have yet to accomplish this… But after having my heart shattered I’m welcoming a new kind of pain ti distract me from the aching hurt. I kind of want to get tiny and weak, I want him to know how much he hurt me… I want to get sick… Maybe ill die and this pain will go away… But if not atleast ill be beautiful and ill make him jealous. Also having a timeline will keep me from talking to him for two weeks, it will put him through the pain he deserves. Maybe through this fasting experience ill come to feel liberated without him, maybe ill find someone who is more deserving of me.

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20hours

Not even a full day and hunger pangs are killing me. All I can think about is food. I’m sosossosoososo hungry. But I’ve got to lose 5lbs minimum by tomorrow night. Or there’s no way I’m wearing my skimpy halloween costume. And another 12 lbs in the next 4days

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switching to water fast

I think I’m retaining a lot of water weight from the diet soda and such and I’m also not losing weight fast enough to be 90 or even 95 on saturday or halloween. Thus…. I’m going to switch to a strict water fast only for the nest 3 days!! Toughhh!!

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almost 2 full days

I’m pushing like 40 hours and I feel fine, I’m not even hungry. Its so silly that I didn’t start this earlier. I’m gonna weigh myself in the morning and hope for 100lbs but I may be as heavy as 106, unfortunately. But I’m going to continue to fast until 85, or until I fit into my old abercrombie jeans, which ill try on when I’m 85lbs.

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quiche

Its delicious looking, sitting in the fridge calling my name. Therere also some panutbutter cookies, and pumpkin pie….. Mmmmmmmm must wait till after halloween!

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fastfastfast!

I’m excited! I’m gonna try to run twice a day too! Improve my 9k time to 40mins flat, and 1mile to 5mins. And I hope for 12-15lbs weightloss…. Yayyy

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3day fast

Tomorrow I’m going to start my frist hopefully successful 3day fast. If all goes well, I’d like to extend it to 5, and maybe 7 days… But ill take it one day at a time. I feel that this time around will be successful because I’ve learned to manage my binges and curb emotional cravings, and get by through school or whatever on an empty stomach. After I reach my goal weight, ill just stick to a 100-200cal diet and it will be much easier!

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another binge

I’m still 110 and its so annoying. Its immobilizing me, keeping me from being who I wanna be, from being happy. I saw my “guy”friend last night and binged after idk maybe it was the stress. But this weekend I’m going to try to lose 10lbs by running 11 miles a day, 22 miles total. And eating 0 calories, and lots of water. Then, ill eat 50 calories a day and stretch all week to lose the last 10lbs in 5 days

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